Ready and Unprepared

Hey friends!

Well I have to say it's been a while! I hope the people who asked why the blog hasn't been updated in a while (mostly my mother), will forgive me for not posting in the month of December. The reason for this is that there really wasn't much to say. Other than it being a time to celebrate the birthday of our Saviour, Jesus Christ, it was a month of details. I spent most of it making lists and running here or there to pick important things up, shooting emails to YWAM and the ever enjoyable applying to college. I won't know the results of that final venture until sometime in February, so let's hope for the best shall we!

On to what's important! The countdown is dwindling. It is now three days until January 6th, the day I leave for my Discipleship Training School in Colorado Springs. Everyone I talk to asks me if I am excited to begin this journey, so to forego this conversations, I will answer the question now: In a word, yes.

I am well equipped physically. For Christmas I received hiking boots, a heavy duty backpack that holds 70 L to live out of for three months on Outreach, a polar fleece that I found can withstand even the cruelest Canadian climates and much more "indulgences".

But mentally and emotionally, I'm completely unprepared. I am more than eager to break down the walls that have been holding me in for so long and I know that this is exactly the release I'm meant to have, but I have no clue what it will be. So many people tell me I am going to see miracles, learn of the calling God has for me and even do amazing things and I know how much weight their words carry. The road ahead brings me great promise, but what exactly it is and how hard it will be is still unclear, but I am okay with that. I'm just ready for God to lead me in ways I could never imagine, to discover parts of myself that can only be revealed when I am consumed and made clean.

Yesterday, I had a goodbye party with the new friends I have made since I left my past behind. The night and amount of people that showed up to wish me well and bless me was unbelievable. I've realized what it means to have people in your life who see your true value and really want to be a part of your experiences. I will miss them all!

So, with all necessary money raised, stuff almost packed, heart set on the road ahead, eyes still glancing backwards a bit, I think it's time to go and let the next six months of my life tell the story!

Thanks for reading,
God bless!
~Kathleen